sry for the wait :)
enjoy_________________________>
later on that day*********
street 14 block 3 house # 476
i was passing every house 474...475..................wat the hell the other side a555555555 i made a U turn left and started reading again 478....477...476!! found it i parked in front of the Bentley and stepped outside and couldn't help notice that all the cars r expensive but the house is not to big it's average size with the money they pay for their cars they could get a huge mansion before i rang the bell i looked at the cars for a second a Bently, Rose Rise, Ferrari GTB 599( how i remembered its all Saif's fault) and last but not least porsche turbo i sighed relief that she wasn't the maha on my mind ya3ni akeed not all mahas is that maha . i rang the bell and i saw her skipping like crazy she gave me a hug and said "i've been waiting for you for a while now to ring the bell" HUH!!!! she went out the house and closed the door leaving me standing there seeing her skipping with her closed 3abayai gave me a small glimpse of something.....
as i sat in the beautify green fields the sun was shining, the flowers were dancing and everything was prefect suddenly a small black figure came in skipping singing a little melody la de la la de de la la .....
k that was stupid she was standing next to me now and i couldn't help realize how short and CUTE she was!!! i entered the car and she was there already MAN short ppl move fast :P or its no her height its just how she's so hyper it looks like she drank a dozen of red bulls .
"k el7ein lets go to the spa first 7amam me'3rebee then message then we'll do our nails after that about your highlights i'll take you to the best one in AD who does highlights then we'll cut your bangs and then lets go to TGA FRIDAYS k" a555 thats alot!!! w 7amam me'3rebee that sounds scary i heard it takes all the dead skins since you were a new born i guess i see alot of dead skin and i wont take my cloth out i keep my bra and pentties.
SPA***
i sat on the marble floor PANTIES AND BRA ON!!!
"7abebtii sheli haza ashan adlek jasim entii ya 7elwa" the sodani women insisted as she started scrubbing my back
"la shokran che zain" i said hating this idea of 7amam m'3rbee ya3nii i scrub well at home very well!
as she was scrubbing i would see stuff flying right and left so much for scrubbing well at home i guess "7abebti 7adii a2wel mara etsawin 7amam"
"hmm" thats all i could say i was in agony from all the scrubbing. i turned around on my back and she started scrubbing my belly i started laughing it was kinda ticklish in this area holding my laughter in so i dnt look weird in front of the bbl. the women was kinda annoyed as i was turning away from the pointing thing and she kept on doing noises that sounding how annoyed she was. i stood still so this could end and kept the laughter in.
"ya rabi i wish i never came how will i continue akeed i'll be so restless after this" i kept on thinking holding the laughter in and my thoughts in i was still as a mountain. "think of something take ur mind off things" i thought
umm wat do i think about...oh that ass salem wats up with the attitude i'll show that ass and i'll look hot make him sweat under the collar. from tomorrow i'll exercise w about my hair i'll just do something new and bangs i dnt think i'll do or do i do umm i closed my eyes and day dreamed of my hair color and the bangs maybe emo cut and highlights is a no no i'll just make my hair the overall wooden brown YUP that'll be amazing!!!
"ya 7elwa yalla 5ala9na" the women words shattered my dream and i opened my eyes happily i rushed up and she went out so i could take a bath.
i went in this square sized tub and soak my head with cold water rinsing it for a while, WHERE is the shampoo i searched through bottles and found one! it had an indian women on it seemed like she was looking at me ahhh scary! i put a little in my palm and the smell flew in my nose it was exotic i felt i was in the fields of citrus oranges and lemons. i put it in my head and i felt a tickle in my head it was amazing it relaxed my head as i massaged it ad it rinsed more, i put my head underneath the water and seriously i felt a great sensation like i jumped in a pool and the scent was citrus ah and the splash!!!!!!!!!
reminded me of my first encounter with Saif. as i repeated the same process my mind just had flashbacks of the first day here and today is wat the 10th day alot happened in all these days wow.
i washed my body and finally went out of the cold sizzling water that sent my shivers first thing when i went out.
i wore my extra pentties and put the towel above me and entered the message session.
the oil was burning but as it cooled down my muscles went numb it was so soothing as the pressure made me relaxed and soothed i loved the feeling i closed my eyes and just slept for the moment.....
as the message session ended and maha and i met in the nails session which was down stairs.
"i want french" i asked
"mmmm i like this flashy pink!!" maha said
we sat there without a word i HATE this thing silence so i just said anything "umm thanx for this outing no1 has done this for me...u know girl time"
"ahhh la2 3adii i had fun too^^" she said flushing red looks like she's a kind of person who gets embarrassed fast these kind of ppl r like an open book u can know everything from their face expression.
"soo tell me which college r u attending??"
" i am going to 6a8neya"
"ohh cool!" with that no1 said anything
"ur dating that hottie that i saw last time with u??" she asked outta nowhere
"umm yah" i said feeling kinda lost why'd she bring it up could she be...
"u look cute 2gether" she said but i felt something wrong it just felt wrong!!!!!
"hhh thanx" with that i noted: maha is that maha whose saif's ex find out more!!!!
after that she took the wheel and took me to the saloon.
Saloon:
we both sat apart she cut her hair shorter and dyed my hair chocolate brown its my original hair color. i looked her way but she didn't flinch from wat she was doing on her BB i looked away rubbing my nose i felt a bit tired and sick *cough* a555 i think i going to be sick
Maha:
i watched our pics together it got my heart clenched, it was still broken. YES! i talked after that to a million of guys hoping i'd forget that day 13 days ago, yah 13 days and i talked to alot of guys but no matter how much they all tried nothing made me feel the same i felt with him!
we were perfect together we looked very different yet were similar in alot of ways as a B**** i was with a player together we tried to stop i stopped but he couldn't after a couple of weeks so together we made a game he would talk to a girl do all lovey dovey talk in the end like after 3 days i'd take the phone and say the same words i'd say to all the girls "meno **** (he never said his real name he'd change it with every girl)hatha ra8my meno ana..hmm..ana..." then i hung up! how we broke up...thats a day i'd never 4get...i was in my car waiting for him, he came out and i went to the passenger seat, he took me behind the house which was a dark ally i had a weird vibe and chills sends electric waves saying danger danger, he locked the doors and told me to open my 3abiaya to see wats underneath i showed him and thats when he turned into a beast...i refused hit him did everything until he stopped attacking me unlocked the door and went out before he went he said the word "we're over!" with that he left me deleted me in FB and blocked me in msn(he wouldn't answer) by time he wouldn't answer his phone! we were over after 2 years... i deleted all the pics we had 2gether all the memories of him my eyes were burning. i left on pic of us and locked my BB.
Sara
i went home running to the milis to show him my hair and irritate him when i saw the most horrifying nightmare. 5alo 3alyas car meaning the kids came meaning salem would be off the scene and noora w meera would annoy me with there babbling.
i sat in the couch still with my 3abiya on trying to get the deal they always come for a reason wat is it now!! noora and meera were sitting alone crying why we're they crying i dunno the kids were playing quietly and the grown ups weren't anywhere. i sat next to the twins and both of them hugged me "baba 6lag mama" both of them said shedding tears on my 3abiya(thank god it wasn't my favorite)
they talked and talked about the fight and how they heard their dad say the word "entii 6alg bl thalatha" and he went out the house meanwhile yadee came down and scram "shofee enti matreedn 5alich fe bait abouch fahma"
"ana bag3ad henii bekaramtii 5ala9 ana mob rada" 5alo 3alya said heading down stairs with yadee w mama w 5aloo fa6oom.
"a9lan 3endna '3raf w kl shai bas entii nami weya moza , noora w meera weya sara" sho yadee 7aram 3lek 3ala asas we have rooms "w el 3ayal weyay bas lain ma en76 el athath" she nodded and they all came fel milis.
noora w meera stopped crying and hugged me again "we're sleeping with you until we get our rooms yay yay" the both scram into my ears in each side i suddenly had a huge headach and i wanted to scream. then i went searching for salem just to shove everything on his face and do a little act on him. i knocked on their door but no answer akeed their in the gym, i went down to the gym but nope, i went to the garden bas nothing shed akeed shed i went there w i saw Saif w Salem holding Kim's tummy.
"sara ta3lee kim's pregnant " Saif yelled as i walked towards them, salem didn't bother smile or say a word he just kept rubbing kim's tummy. i went next to Saif and he held my hand "if he's a boy i'll call him ummm what do i call him?? if a girl i'll call her megan " he said winking at me "3ashan megan foxx or no Cheryl she is hot too or angelena " i hit his shoulder
"you know if you want to make it on his list you better lose that belly" Salem came blasting in, i gave him a face and he continued "agool Saif mob 3ala kaifik you know the father is enrique 9a7 so i have el 7ag ena i name too"
"k what do you want to name them SA-lem" Saif asked leaving my hand and putting his arm around my shoulder.
"aba el waled the name fars w bent sara" he said grinning when he said my name
"laish sara huh" Saif said eyeing him
"3ashan you know she's on my list" he said "from those girls methel megan w kim"
"what do you mean huh" i said annoyed
"you think about it" he said patting saif's shoulder and he went to enrique. Saif looked at me and lift my chin with his finger kissing my cheek he said
"he's dealing with things at work don't mind him" and he hugged me "but 7esaba 3endii" he said chuckling "ana ma art7 w entii methana" he pulled away and his smile made me so happy i love this guy ahhhhhh my heart.
"baby check your mail akeed the college accepted you they accepted me!" he said and i jumped for another hug i seriously jumped my legs were around him and his hand we around me. he turned in happiness and let go of me
"congrats i am so happy inshalla ana ba3ad" i said blushing
"yalla go check" he pushed me out the door and i ran to my room the kids were on the way i kept jumping when a car came was on the way as i went in the room i opened my laptop waiting impatiently for the log in. i wrote my password and waiting for the laptop to load waiting waiting...i opened my hotmail and i did see an e-mail from NYU i checked it and i was shocked.....
Monday, October 25, 2010
NO COMMENTS :(
y isnt any1 commenting y3nii 5ala9 u hate my new story w the old one i need to know c'mon 36 followers and nothing!!!!
i wont mind if 1 commented but its like 0 how do u expect me to continue like this i wanna kno if u like it or not
ik every1 is busy but seriously i kept the post on a whole 2 week for atleast one comment if u comment after 3 month i will still read it since i rlly care about ur opinion!
thanx
i hope u comment soon
xoxoxo
i wont mind if 1 commented but its like 0 how do u expect me to continue like this i wanna kno if u like it or not
ik every1 is busy but seriously i kept the post on a whole 2 week for atleast one comment if u comment after 3 month i will still read it since i rlly care about ur opinion!
thanx
i hope u comment soon
xoxoxo
Sunday, October 24, 2010
No Name 3
hey every1 comments will be nice dnt 4get plz i need to kno if u like it
i did an fb finally and confronted my uncle ^_^
so i hope u like it ****
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Shamsa;
i sat on my desk just paying attention too my chemistry teacher, trying to get the point of the negative and positive poles. until a note landed on my desk, distracted from the class i took the note and read it....
poles are exactly like u and i ,i'm negative and ur positive we attract each other...
love F
my face flushed red and i turned my head to see who sent me this. some were sleeping, some where listening to their mp3's and some were paying attention which was that emo boy who keeps on going ahead of me >.< pfft but could it be him??? he's name is .....umm...its coming to me....Faris shit he likes me he actually likes me gross he's sick! he looked at me just stared and then i realized i'm staring at him.
i returned to my position looking at the white board which filled up with words, my mind was on about how could he possibly like me and how stupid am i how can i show him that i like him. but he's not bad himself, tall, tanned skin that glows, eyes full of mystery, and that hair oo god it crept down on his eyes. suddenly images flattered in my head of me running my hand through his hair and feeling his soft looking full lips on me. lust was all over trying to fill me in about him trying to make me want him. i shook my head thinking about the other disgusting things bout him he was so skinny ya33 like god i am fatter than him if i hug him i think hiss bones might break UGH again about love with him GOD!!!!
the bell rang and the girls were scattered in front of my desk, they all worshiped me, they loved me, praised me, it made me shiver in madness i loved the feeling of being loved and perfect in front of every1. they all would wish to be like me...but they didn't know it was just but an act a pot of lies were all hidden in me deep down. i act so they'd love me i need that love i need to be complimented by since no one does that at home. i stood up and walked to the cafeteria the girls followed. i sat on my table thinking about nothing really. i just sat there staring at each girl...how desperate are they?
"hey shamsa you want my browni i know you love it" a girl said with huge lips i smiled and took the browni.
i was hungry since i skipped breakfast for my siblings to eat. i hope everything works out for my dad and if they do that means we go back to our mansion, food filled in the kitchen, my siblings all around the house running and enjoying their time, and i'll be back to my room doing the thing i always loved designing some dresses or just sketching them. maybe reading if i was free.
life was easier back then my mom and dad smiled cheerfully i was not even concerned about anything but myself but now it was my family that mean the most i didn't think bout myself in any decision they're simply everything now.
Fairs
i was on the school roof again eating my granola bar, feeling a bit nauseous since this was my first motorcycle drive without my helmet well basically it was my first drive ever since i just bought that rebel yesterday good and new and the plate number was amazing it was 7 my graps searched for it about 1 month now and made the guy who has it sell it for him with double the price he had. i took the license for it about 2 days ago when i was 15 but today i'm sixteen i had half the right to do what ever i want thats wat graps said my grams hated the idea of everything i do and this thing about me doing half the things i want on my right was troubling her. she hated the fact the i a street fighter and that i risk my life. the idea of not being home at night but being at the park which half the people there are dead inside the bushes. hated every tuesday because of the bunji jumping thing. and now that i have a motorcycle she hated that the worst or maybe the third most!
i sat there on the big fan trying to get a tan. i got my iphone out and started fbing people and i found her Shamsa Al X i had to add or no i shouldn't she'll think of me as a freak.
but as curious as i always was i went to her profile and realised that all her likes and interests were just like MINE!
expect the fashion designing thing
could she possibly be the one for me???
should i be worried??
since all the people i love die maybe i should stay away
i barely know here!
i want to know her!
i did an fb finally and confronted my uncle ^_^
so i hope u like it ****
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Shamsa;
i sat on my desk just paying attention too my chemistry teacher, trying to get the point of the negative and positive poles. until a note landed on my desk, distracted from the class i took the note and read it....
poles are exactly like u and i ,i'm negative and ur positive we attract each other...
love F
my face flushed red and i turned my head to see who sent me this. some were sleeping, some where listening to their mp3's and some were paying attention which was that emo boy who keeps on going ahead of me >.< pfft but could it be him??? he's name is .....umm...its coming to me....Faris shit he likes me he actually likes me gross he's sick! he looked at me just stared and then i realized i'm staring at him.
i returned to my position looking at the white board which filled up with words, my mind was on about how could he possibly like me and how stupid am i how can i show him that i like him. but he's not bad himself, tall, tanned skin that glows, eyes full of mystery, and that hair oo god it crept down on his eyes. suddenly images flattered in my head of me running my hand through his hair and feeling his soft looking full lips on me. lust was all over trying to fill me in about him trying to make me want him. i shook my head thinking about the other disgusting things bout him he was so skinny ya33 like god i am fatter than him if i hug him i think hiss bones might break UGH again about love with him GOD!!!!
the bell rang and the girls were scattered in front of my desk, they all worshiped me, they loved me, praised me, it made me shiver in madness i loved the feeling of being loved and perfect in front of every1. they all would wish to be like me...but they didn't know it was just but an act a pot of lies were all hidden in me deep down. i act so they'd love me i need that love i need to be complimented by since no one does that at home. i stood up and walked to the cafeteria the girls followed. i sat on my table thinking about nothing really. i just sat there staring at each girl...how desperate are they?
"hey shamsa you want my browni i know you love it" a girl said with huge lips i smiled and took the browni.
i was hungry since i skipped breakfast for my siblings to eat. i hope everything works out for my dad and if they do that means we go back to our mansion, food filled in the kitchen, my siblings all around the house running and enjoying their time, and i'll be back to my room doing the thing i always loved designing some dresses or just sketching them. maybe reading if i was free.
life was easier back then my mom and dad smiled cheerfully i was not even concerned about anything but myself but now it was my family that mean the most i didn't think bout myself in any decision they're simply everything now.
Fairs
i was on the school roof again eating my granola bar, feeling a bit nauseous since this was my first motorcycle drive without my helmet well basically it was my first drive ever since i just bought that rebel yesterday good and new and the plate number was amazing it was 7 my graps searched for it about 1 month now and made the guy who has it sell it for him with double the price he had. i took the license for it about 2 days ago when i was 15 but today i'm sixteen i had half the right to do what ever i want thats wat graps said my grams hated the idea of everything i do and this thing about me doing half the things i want on my right was troubling her. she hated the fact the i a street fighter and that i risk my life. the idea of not being home at night but being at the park which half the people there are dead inside the bushes. hated every tuesday because of the bunji jumping thing. and now that i have a motorcycle she hated that the worst or maybe the third most!
i sat there on the big fan trying to get a tan. i got my iphone out and started fbing people and i found her Shamsa Al X i had to add or no i shouldn't she'll think of me as a freak.
but as curious as i always was i went to her profile and realised that all her likes and interests were just like MINE!
expect the fashion designing thing
could she possibly be the one for me???
should i be worried??
since all the people i love die maybe i should stay away
i barely know here!
i want to know her!
Sunday, October 17, 2010
No Name Part 2
was my dad's first day at his new job, he used to be one of the greatest accountants in my opinion of course then after my mom left he just got sad and gloomy. he'd just throw anything at me when he sees me coz he says "tshbahenha" and he'd just throw any random thing on me. all my time is in my room hiding from him, i'd just cook for my siblings coz the maid doesnt know how to cook :@ after studying i teach her but thats just rare. this time my dad is working in this huge company as the super accountant his salary is just big it makes me smile just listening at that huge number. i couldn't pay attention to the teacher he kept on babbling about osmosis god WHO CARES!!! i just sat on my chair banging my head on the table. my friend amoon patted my shoulder and smiled warmly "its going to end soon" she whispered i smiled and stopped banging my cute head. oo yah something about me i am self centered i love myself i just believe that i am better than these girls, c'mon i took care of one whole household, getting straight A's. and still looking pretty LIKE THATS PERFECTION FOLKS are you like me, NOPE UR NOT!! the bell finally rang but the teacher didn't dismiss us expect he said " i have your quizes now i am very proud to say that Faris got the highest mark, good job son" and with that i hated that 'faris" for the first time Mr. Watson didn't tell me these words, it just ached. i titled my head to look at the bastard who took my spot, WATTT no way CUPCAKE BOY who didnt smile at my face ugh now i hate him even more, oo i didnt know he was in our class a9lan huh!
Mr.Watson gave me my quiz and nodded "you just lost a mark for a silly question Shamsa Next time i dont want to see such mistake your my favorite student" i nodded and he continued passing the quizes as i was reading my stupid mistake, i could see him staring umm whats his name again....god lets just call him cupcake boy. ugh he feels contempt for me thats so rude, i stood up and went to his table and he just changed he stare and looked at his paper, god i am soooo pissed i bet i'm flushing red!!
"good job" i said giving him my hand but he didn't shake he was to busy look at his paper which is upside down. i took his paper and turned it so he can see better "when you want to ignore just do it the right way" and i left.
i was in the car still giggling at what i told cupcake boy "do it the right way" c'mon seriously i bet i could've made a better one on time >.< Meme my little sister giggled as i giggled. Ahmed w M7amed were just playing on their DS.
NOTE: Meme is in kindergarden
M7amed is in gr.1
Ahmed is in gr.4
Shamsa well i'm in gr.11
i just sat on the car remembering his idiotic face giggling to myself, thinking of other things that could replace the words i said wrong.
ugh, what was up with that, though she is cute that little "smacker". i was thinking of her while the other kids were throwing me inside the trash like they always do calling me "EMOTIONAL GAY". i didn't care as long as she was on my mind i didn't mind, the way she talked she kinda flushed red as she was talking to me was she embarrassed she so into me!!!
i jumped out the trash can and went in my Bentley. i just threw my head on the seat as the driver drove my heart was just thinking of her. i like her ....i guess!
i ran inside the boxing training since the tournament is in the next 6 month i better be ready if i want to win against 3eisa. i ran in and the couch gave me a lecture of being dissed by bullies and how i should stand up to them. i guess i should i mean I WILL i wont be just dumped in the trash everyday in the end of the day, i have the power and i will try to kick their asses those guys. i wrapped my arm, stretched for a bit just to be warmed up, wore my safety gear, and drank some water. i started to punch my couch and defending my self until he punched me on my gut, and KO i dropped on the floor.
"Faris i told you many times now you should always guard ur weak points if you want to win the tournament you'll not even go into sectionals c'mon give me 100 pushups" i stood up still in pain and gave him wat he ordered pain all over my body i dropped on 56 and i couldn't continue anymore. i felt numb like that day >>>>> the car just came outta nowhere and crashed on my mom's side, with that i just dont remember anything i just remember their screams and my silent prayer to god, then i just wake up seeing both my grandparents look at me with contempt, and at that moment i was mentally and physically ill. it took me 6 months to get back on my feet, i would go to these sessions and make a fool at of myself.
couch pulled me up, and patted my shoulder and said "next time guard, don't disappoint me your too skillful and determine" he said still PATTING my back, i nodded and he went to his other students.
i went to the showers took my cloths out and went in, the cold water just hit my body with surprise letting me lean backward, after a while i went back forward took my usual shower massaged my head with frustration, trying to forget that day, i haft to forget it i can't live on like this...
Mr.Watson gave me my quiz and nodded "you just lost a mark for a silly question Shamsa Next time i dont want to see such mistake your my favorite student" i nodded and he continued passing the quizes as i was reading my stupid mistake, i could see him staring umm whats his name again....god lets just call him cupcake boy. ugh he feels contempt for me thats so rude, i stood up and went to his table and he just changed he stare and looked at his paper, god i am soooo pissed i bet i'm flushing red!!
"good job" i said giving him my hand but he didn't shake he was to busy look at his paper which is upside down. i took his paper and turned it so he can see better "when you want to ignore just do it the right way" and i left.
i was in the car still giggling at what i told cupcake boy "do it the right way" c'mon seriously i bet i could've made a better one on time >.< Meme my little sister giggled as i giggled. Ahmed w M7amed were just playing on their DS.
NOTE: Meme is in kindergarden
M7amed is in gr.1
Ahmed is in gr.4
Shamsa well i'm in gr.11
i just sat on the car remembering his idiotic face giggling to myself, thinking of other things that could replace the words i said wrong.
ugh, what was up with that, though she is cute that little "smacker". i was thinking of her while the other kids were throwing me inside the trash like they always do calling me "EMOTIONAL GAY". i didn't care as long as she was on my mind i didn't mind, the way she talked she kinda flushed red as she was talking to me was she embarrassed she so into me!!!
i jumped out the trash can and went in my Bentley. i just threw my head on the seat as the driver drove my heart was just thinking of her. i like her ....i guess!
i ran inside the boxing training since the tournament is in the next 6 month i better be ready if i want to win against 3eisa. i ran in and the couch gave me a lecture of being dissed by bullies and how i should stand up to them. i guess i should i mean I WILL i wont be just dumped in the trash everyday in the end of the day, i have the power and i will try to kick their asses those guys. i wrapped my arm, stretched for a bit just to be warmed up, wore my safety gear, and drank some water. i started to punch my couch and defending my self until he punched me on my gut, and KO i dropped on the floor.
"Faris i told you many times now you should always guard ur weak points if you want to win the tournament you'll not even go into sectionals c'mon give me 100 pushups" i stood up still in pain and gave him wat he ordered pain all over my body i dropped on 56 and i couldn't continue anymore. i felt numb like that day >>>>> the car just came outta nowhere and crashed on my mom's side, with that i just dont remember anything i just remember their screams and my silent prayer to god, then i just wake up seeing both my grandparents look at me with contempt, and at that moment i was mentally and physically ill. it took me 6 months to get back on my feet, i would go to these sessions and make a fool at of myself.
couch pulled me up, and patted my shoulder and said "next time guard, don't disappoint me your too skillful and determine" he said still PATTING my back, i nodded and he went to his other students.
i went to the showers took my cloths out and went in, the cold water just hit my body with surprise letting me lean backward, after a while i went back forward took my usual shower massaged my head with frustration, trying to forget that day, i haft to forget it i can't live on like this...
Sunday, October 3, 2010
No Name Part 1
hope you like it all plz comments r needed i mean it :D
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i went down to the dark basement, where slightly the sun rays run through my skin, i wore my fathers boxing gloves, pressed play on my ipod and the speakers played on my favorite music. i held the punching bag for a second pushing my head on its cold layer reminding me of my dad pounding on this bag and i would glare fascinated by the look, the power he had. i missed that man the tears flowed as i remembered him and then my mom came in the picture too. they both died in a car accident don't they all do and now i live with my weak grandparents who r the only thing that make me live for i remind them of my dad their only child who they gave all their lives for. where did my mom's family go?? hhhhh they hated my dad's guts, my mom was the only connection for them to come to us but now they have nothing to do with me they simply hate me too for having half of my dad's guts well you know what screw them who needs those people. i pulled my head away and held the punch bag just to steady it to the ryt position, and i started punching like a mad man .Rage was all over my body, anger grew deeper i punched harder as flash backs are running through my head fights in the ally 10 against 1 thats no fair i'd go home powerless for a min and then i run to my punch bag helplessly trying to gain superior . i would ran into fights everyday even those slacking police men knew my name after the fights i'd ran back to my grandmother and she'd read qur2an above my head then after that like always my grandfather gives me the same lecture that really does nothing and sounds like this BLAH BLAH BLAH.... the song blasted in my mind like it always does the words were so striking it made sense...
this aint a song for the broken hearted
no silent prayer for the faith departed
and i aint gonna be just a face in the crowd
your gonna hear my voice when i shouted it out loud
ITS MY LIFE
ITS NOW OR NEVER
I AINT GONNA LIVE FOREVER
I JUST WANNA LIVE WHILE I'M ALIVE
ITS MY LIFE
MY HEART IS LIKE AN OPEN HIGHWAY
(BON JOVI-ITS MY LIFE)
>>>>> i need to live my life its seriously now or never i might die at any time at any moment, i stopped punching dropped the gloves on the floor and went upstairs to my room. i looked at myself for awhile, this isn't me i am not this the sh7al under my eyes, that frown that never departs, and my hair that cover my eyes leaving the sh7al look like i didn't sleep for a life time.
YET nobody stays the same we all change don't we? i wore my hoddie leave my sweat over my skin. i slowly took my graps car key and ran out the door. i opened the car door and just raced out the house.
i drove to the usual spot the beach. i parked and i went out took a cupcake and SMACK how in the 6oo6 is that the cupcake was all over my hoddie squished actually. i tilted my head so i can see this annoying person and i saw this huge stupid smile on her whats her face...IDOIT!
i gave that ugly emo a smily that amazing smile every1 falls for but he didnt smile he just frowned HE FROWNED give me this look.
"elsomo7" i said apologetic coz i squished his cupcake that emo ugh they just get emotional so fast. he nodded and went back to get another one. i went to my siblings and they kept on giggling like crazy.
"shut up losers yalla we had enough in this dark place" i said really annoyed about how he just frowned at my perfect smile!!
"OKAY YALLA SHOOSH" my little sister Meme screamed we went back to our car and drove back home...
i went back home and my dad wasn't there, he didn't throw anything at me?! WEIRD i am getting scared X( i ran to his room and he was happily smiling.
"7abebty etwa'9aft" my dad said widely smiling, he kissed my cheek and said the weirdest "ana asef" with that i knew he changed i smiled back and i kissed his cheek.
i guess i understand what he's been through, my mom left the house for another guy my dad meets her every month for the custody thing i hope she never wins, god she disgusts me.
i ran to the kitchen and made some rice and curry like every monday.
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i went down to the dark basement, where slightly the sun rays run through my skin, i wore my fathers boxing gloves, pressed play on my ipod and the speakers played on my favorite music. i held the punching bag for a second pushing my head on its cold layer reminding me of my dad pounding on this bag and i would glare fascinated by the look, the power he had. i missed that man the tears flowed as i remembered him and then my mom came in the picture too. they both died in a car accident don't they all do and now i live with my weak grandparents who r the only thing that make me live for i remind them of my dad their only child who they gave all their lives for. where did my mom's family go?? hhhhh they hated my dad's guts, my mom was the only connection for them to come to us but now they have nothing to do with me they simply hate me too for having half of my dad's guts well you know what screw them who needs those people. i pulled my head away and held the punch bag just to steady it to the ryt position, and i started punching like a mad man .Rage was all over my body, anger grew deeper i punched harder as flash backs are running through my head fights in the ally 10 against 1 thats no fair i'd go home powerless for a min and then i run to my punch bag helplessly trying to gain superior . i would ran into fights everyday even those slacking police men knew my name after the fights i'd ran back to my grandmother and she'd read qur2an above my head then after that like always my grandfather gives me the same lecture that really does nothing and sounds like this BLAH BLAH BLAH.... the song blasted in my mind like it always does the words were so striking it made sense...
this aint a song for the broken hearted
no silent prayer for the faith departed
and i aint gonna be just a face in the crowd
your gonna hear my voice when i shouted it out loud
ITS MY LIFE
ITS NOW OR NEVER
I AINT GONNA LIVE FOREVER
I JUST WANNA LIVE WHILE I'M ALIVE
ITS MY LIFE
MY HEART IS LIKE AN OPEN HIGHWAY
(BON JOVI-ITS MY LIFE)
>>>>> i need to live my life its seriously now or never i might die at any time at any moment, i stopped punching dropped the gloves on the floor and went upstairs to my room. i looked at myself for awhile, this isn't me i am not this the sh7al under my eyes, that frown that never departs, and my hair that cover my eyes leaving the sh7al look like i didn't sleep for a life time.
YET nobody stays the same we all change don't we? i wore my hoddie leave my sweat over my skin. i slowly took my graps car key and ran out the door. i opened the car door and just raced out the house.
i drove to the usual spot the beach. i parked and i went out took a cupcake and SMACK how in the 6oo6 is that the cupcake was all over my hoddie squished actually. i tilted my head so i can see this annoying person and i saw this huge stupid smile on her whats her face...IDOIT!
i gave that ugly emo a smily that amazing smile every1 falls for but he didnt smile he just frowned HE FROWNED give me this look.
"elsomo7" i said apologetic coz i squished his cupcake that emo ugh they just get emotional so fast. he nodded and went back to get another one. i went to my siblings and they kept on giggling like crazy.
"shut up losers yalla we had enough in this dark place" i said really annoyed about how he just frowned at my perfect smile!!
"OKAY YALLA SHOOSH" my little sister Meme screamed we went back to our car and drove back home...
i went back home and my dad wasn't there, he didn't throw anything at me?! WEIRD i am getting scared X( i ran to his room and he was happily smiling.
"7abebty etwa'9aft" my dad said widely smiling, he kissed my cheek and said the weirdest "ana asef" with that i knew he changed i smiled back and i kissed his cheek.
i guess i understand what he's been through, my mom left the house for another guy my dad meets her every month for the custody thing i hope she never wins, god she disgusts me.
i ran to the kitchen and made some rice and curry like every monday.
Saturday, October 2, 2010
No Name(intro)
k this is a new story i got in mind for a few weeks now, i am going to continue Ensan Kan B 7ayatti bas not now soon i guess ^_^
so the story goes like this...
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God speaking of paint it black this boy is really dull, the purple creepy aura surrounds him, that frown on his face never departs him, his black hair on his eyes, it made me wonder...why is he so gloomy, he's look is just to deep and desperate it aches just to look. i looked away and again i smiled to my friends like my life is any better i bet a million my life sucks even more than him who i dont even know he's name expect that he's in the same class. Simply just to give u a brief look into the real me i am just an illusion i wish one day i'd become wat i act to be i always say my life is amazing and perfect my smile never runs out of my face but inside me i am sobbing like crazy my life is so not perfect i come home i get hit by anything my dad throws at me saying he's usual words that mean how is school, i cook lunch for my 3 siblings then i study after that i just do something creative with my hands do some code ugh it just hurts but it feels so nice the pain is so good makes me feel better some how. I'm Shamsa btw i'm the sun that spreads throughout my school for my perfect smile and perfect life.
Never in my life did i see i psychologist but now all i know is that my blood isnt just dripping like crazy...every entry is said by the way i talk to my psychologist.
ta ta for now my darlings
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No Name<<<
xoxox
so the story goes like this...
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God speaking of paint it black this boy is really dull, the purple creepy aura surrounds him, that frown on his face never departs him, his black hair on his eyes, it made me wonder...why is he so gloomy, he's look is just to deep and desperate it aches just to look. i looked away and again i smiled to my friends like my life is any better i bet a million my life sucks even more than him who i dont even know he's name expect that he's in the same class. Simply just to give u a brief look into the real me i am just an illusion i wish one day i'd become wat i act to be i always say my life is amazing and perfect my smile never runs out of my face but inside me i am sobbing like crazy my life is so not perfect i come home i get hit by anything my dad throws at me saying he's usual words that mean how is school, i cook lunch for my 3 siblings then i study after that i just do something creative with my hands do some code ugh it just hurts but it feels so nice the pain is so good makes me feel better some how. I'm Shamsa btw i'm the sun that spreads throughout my school for my perfect smile and perfect life.
Never in my life did i see i psychologist but now all i know is that my blood isnt just dripping like crazy...every entry is said by the way i talk to my psychologist.
ta ta for now my darlings
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No Name<<<
xoxox
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